well. i know i said i wun update anymore. but i suddenly felt like writing. so i thought i might as well write in this blog i created. but it still takes so long to load the post page. haiz. lousy lousy. nearly took the mood to write away. luckily it loaded.... i was about to give up. these recent few weeks have seen extreme fluctuations in my spirits. from extreme happiness to extreme despair. and i realised that i had nobody to share them with. what a F up 23 years eh? but its ok.... i had long ago learnt to be independent, and be strong. "friends" & "bros", what a bucket load of flying crap.
anyways.... moving on. well i last left some words in july i believe. so it has been 4 months and my exams are around the corner. but i havent even started studying.... i really couldnt give a damn. haha. the luxury of knowing that i am firmly stuck in my honours class. no need for that desperate session of mugging in hope that i can pull up my CAP. how's that for relaxation??? this sem has been quite ok.... 3 day week. what more can i ask for? i did consistently keep up with my work. quite proud of myself. cos i know that while im stuck, i surely do not wish to see a drop.
of coz, there is FYP stress. and i was truly stressed though no one knew. the difficulty of getting the sensors. and setting everything up. the impossible difficulties with the SMDs. the numerous problems.... really glad to say i managed to conquer them, for now.... hope i can make significant progress during the dec holidays. so i'll truly be relaxed in my last sem. not accelerated, but at least i can focus on other areas in my life. anyway this is one of the reasons im feeling quite happy.... there are 2 others, but i guess i'll savour them on my own
sadly 1 of the happy reasons turned out to become 1 of the reasons i became very sad. but i guess im just like that and it cant be helped, even if i did prepare. or maybe i din prepare very well, but i believe i did what i could. of coz on hindsight i know i can do better. anyways, better luck from now on, i hope? other sad reasons included my 4604 quiz 2. buang quite badly i think. nv study properly and skipped the diagrams. no point regretting. the 4606 project. total last min. work. i dun know if its enough. but its group work afterall, not totally within my control. i oredi did what i could. presentation din go that well too. hope i dun get lower than a B. 2002 presentation.... i hanged. thanks to the 1.5 hrs of sleep i got the previous night due to the stupid car. but i think its negligible. i hope. anyways i hope i dun get lower than a B for this too. the report was crap too. 3206 is quite ok surprisingly. but the exam will be crucial. anyways given my low expectations, i do hope they are realised. it aint that hard is it?
haha hope my vip is ok.... dun think i'll get a U? and i got my aid. very happy. not tuition-ing much nowadays. no $$, but the time i have is so so shiok. lol. lovely. maybe, just maybe, i'll 4get about the stupid wrx. IF there are better things in store. i'll even sell the rio. hope i wun be disappointed.... yes, im fearful, but at least theres hope, finally. well even if i am disappointed in the end, i did have a really really really enjoyable day.... think it will be among the all-time feel good moments in my life. haha im blabbering nonsense... cos if u had read till here, u wun understand a single thing ive been trying to say in this post. too bad, as long as i do, this post has served its purpose.
and i did say i wun spend on the car anymore. guess what? i changed to a short shifter.... i sold my beloved MOMO knob. den i changed brake pads cos the right side was totally gone. dun know why it MIA or AWOL. den i patched my tyre cos a nail went into it. no puncture, but well i dun wanna risk it. and den the coolant hose cracked and caused my car to overheat. wasted my sleeping time, along wif pat and tracy's. damn it man a 30cm pipe can stop a car. actually i do love my car. but its not fast enough. and petrol is nearly $100. haiz. no studying at nus for me this sem. what i like is that i have alot of options. tts good.
movie update. i caught 2 lousy ones. the number 23 and 1408. nonsense. next was rendition. not bad, juz that the guy was pathetically suay. hmm next was lion and lamb? quite chim and abit nicer than rendition. another 2 suay pple. den i caught lust caution. not a bad movie. but weird ending. and very graphic. den doraemon. so funny. but lameass plot. but it was a very very very good movie in other ways. now for the exams.... cant wait!
