Monday, February 19, 2007

my my. what a bitch.

switching to the new blogger via a google account is a bitch. why do this kinda troublesome thing? esp when the old thing was working fine. the auto create google account function was crap. tried like 5 times but it din work. den i thought of registering at google mail for an account 1st and coming to blogger subsequently. voila it works!

taking a break from winning at blackjack. small bets nia la. friendly friendly game wif the relatives. had wanted to post an entry twice previously, but couldnt due to the dumb google issue.

anyway. i caught a fantastic movie yesterday. At First Sight. low profile movie, but very nice. its about a guy who became blind when he was 3 yrs old. and suddenly got back his eyesight via a cataract operation when he was in his 20s. and only a few weeks later, he became blind again due to some medical problems with his eyes. its a very very good story telling the difficulties of being blind, as well as the difficulties when a blind man can suddenly see. so i guess while there is much unhappiness in life, along with the neverending list of things we want, we should also learn how to appreciate all the things we have. cos i think we always take what we already have for granted, in the pursuit of more things and seemingly, more happiness. while i have to say that im materialistic too, and have an endless list of things that i want, i truly feel very happy to have what i already have now. i would happily stay in the same house and drive the same car. of coz i dun deny that i wanna drive a WRX or even an Evo, but thats provided that i can afford it. i would want a better quality of life if i could afford it. and dreams give us motivation to work harder dun they? but i wouldnt be unhappy if i had to stay in a HDB and drive the rio for 10 yrs... truly.

back to the topic of being materialistic and having a neverending list of wants. i know im materialistic, but honestly i know that once i have something, i will be happy for awhile, and then its back to the same old story. theres yet another thing i want. in that sense, it gains happiness, even though the happiness doesnt last very long. and i realise that when i dun go about getting the thing i wanted, i gradually forget about it and want some other thing again. so i wun really feel very sad, juz maybe some regret. this applies to girls, particularly to 1 relationship. not that i had many. well, life goes on. but this is another story for another day. what i meant to say was that in life, we are faced with many choices. so definitely, life is full of regrets, after we have made our choices. its whether we can pick ourselves up and move on with our lives that makes the regrets painful, or juz feel a little tinge of sadness. i vowed to be strong, and im sure theres better things in store for me. haha, like a WRX.

haha. so philosophical and full of rubbish. the movie made me think about certain events... actually this kinda movie seldom comes about... so thought-provoking, instead of merely being funny or having a very strong storyline. i guess i enjoy a variety of movies, just that this thought-provoking one is very rare and hence i like it very much more. so in the end, i decided not to spend any more $$ on material things and instead, save for the upcoming HK trip. the trip is material too u might say, but i guess this could possibly be the LAST time so many of us are going overseas together. i can imagine how difficult it is for us to all take leave to go overseas together after we are all working and potentially have our own families. i really treasure the times spent with family and friends, much more than just material things. eg. the italy jersey i no longer want to buy, the remus exhaust i gave up for the HK trip. in fact im not spending any more $$ on the car anymore. pls dissuade me if i do. cos from a rational viewpoint, any more $$ WILL definitely be better spent on a WRX. might as well get a WRX earlier, den spend on a car that wun go anymore faster legally. like joseph said, i have already done everything and theres no need to do anymore. i agree, and i hope i will continue to remain rational.

recently i got a great temptation from pat. hush puppies shoes. i tried them and its like your feet get a very warm and snug embrace from a very loving wife. but the cost, and the fact that i do have the nike repaired, stopped me. no kidding they are really comfy. clarks can go 1 corner to relak. and pat said they are durable. the next time im getting shoes, i know where to get them from... and the price isnt much more than stupid beetle bug. haha. i did see $40 shoes from the Isetan sale. but as with sale items, my size was unavailable. what to do.... make do with what i already have. a new shoe isnt vital yet. haiz when will my financial situation improve to the point where i dun have to worry about splurging on things... oh but theres the HK trip.... and i have to save for my WRX. haiz i guess that wun really happen till i graduate and get a job. cant wait!

omg they are restarting the blackjack.... been calling for me for awhile already. keke im off to win summore small $$. hehe hopefully. post another time. bye! happy CNY.

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